The Final Countdown

Here we are again, in the last few weeks of another spring semester, with everything crunching in on us at once; final papers, projects, tests, stresses about jobs and internships, thoughts of moving out and about summer plans all swirling in each of our heads all at once. I’ve even started to keep track of the number of days of class left, counting down to the end of the year.

However, the number of days of school is not the only thing I’m counting down. A few weeks ago, I made the decision to discontinue my position within Lighthouse leadership, in order to more fully devote my time and effort to being an RA, as well as a graduating senior next year. As soon as I officially made the decision, the implications my choice suddenly hit me. Even though it’s not as if I would just drop off the face of the earth and never attend another Lighthouse event again, it still meant that I would no longer be a part of the inner workings of the community, that I would no longer come to the weekly leadership meetings, and that I wouldn’t get to be part of the playful banter during set-up and break-down on Tuesday evenings. And, I would lose my title of Lighthouse Treasurer, which has really become a big part of my identity on campus. Who is Brittany Walker? Oh, she’s the treasurer for Lighthouse! I’ve signed emails and introduced myself this way. Lighthouse is part of who I am now.

So here I am, counting down the number of leadership meetings I’ll be attending, counting down the number of times I’ll have to go up to the ASUPS office, counting down the events I’ll be helping to plan and buy food for…and it’s a weird feeling. It’s weird to think about how different next year is going to be. But at the same time, I’m glad that someone else is getting the chance to step into my shoes and experience what it’s like to be on Lighthouse leadership, because it has taught me a lot of things, especially about relationships.

Looking back 3 years at myself and my interactions with others, I can see how my relationships with others have drastically changed in the best way possible. This school year, and especially in the last few months, I’ve seen how much of an impact the small things in my relationships can make, from a word of encouragement, to a warm hug, to sincerely asking someone how they are doing. Myself, I’m not the most outgoing person on the team, but everybody has shown me so much love and appreciation, which has in turn, inspired me to show it right back to Lighthouse, and to the campus community. I’m going to take what I’ve learned on this team into my duties as an RA, and hopefully later into a career in therapy.

Lighthouse is invaluable to me and to so many people. While it’s hard for me to say goodbye to my role on leadership, I know that this isn’t the end of Lighthouse for me, and I also know that it’s a beginning for our new interns. So I want to thank everybody on leadership for everything they’ve done for me: for the gut-wrenching laughs, for the meaningful hugs, for support and comfort, and for making me popular. 😉