It’s Okay to Feel

“God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble. Therefore we will not fear, though the earth should change and though the mountains slip into the heart of the sea; though its waters roar and foam, though the mountains quake at its swelling pride.” -Psalm 46:1-3

It seems safe to say that life has been rough lately with sickness, death, school work, heart break, and some confusion as to why life works the way it does. I am surrounded by some of the strongest individuals on a daily basis, and it just seems like everyone is fighting some kind of battle – whether or not they choose to verbalize it. I surely don’t have the answers as to why things happen the way they do, and it doesn’t seem that many people have answers either, which is unsettling and doesn’t even remotely help with the turmoil circulating my mind. I was thinking to myself the other day, “Okay, Stephanie, it’s time to get your act together and buck up, you need to start acting like a happy human again.” But in the midst of Holy Week, however, it seems that experiencing sadness or confusion is okay. This is a week of reflection, along with many other things, and is a reminder that while things can feel lost, they will also be found again.

This past Tuesday, Lighthouse did an amazing version of Stations of the Cross. One thing Cody mentioned at the beginning of the evening was that sometimes people skip over the darkness leading up to Jesus’ death, and go straight to the cheer associated Easter. Throughout the service, I was blown away the beauty that could be found in those 24 hours leading up to one of the darkest events Christians know. Jesus was crucified which just straight up sucks. He felt as if he were abandoned by God, and was betrayed by someone who was closest to him. It seems as though any one can really relate to that, thinking “God, where the heck are you?” But at the same time, Jesus also was resurrected. The dude ascended into heaven, for goodness sake. If that’s not a silver lining, I’m really not sure what is. It seems that this whole “silver lining” idea, and the “things get better” phrase are over used and could be one of those most obvious themes drawn from Holy Week, but sometimes, I also think that even the most obvious of ideas need to be reiterated because they are so often be overlooked. Everyone needs a reminder every once in a while that their struggles are valid. It’s okay to get angry, be upset, be pissed, but things will get better, it’s just a matter of time.

If you’d like to talk to Stephanie about this or anything else, you can join her in Diversions for her Cafe Hour next Wednesday (4/3) from noon to 1:00.